Mother nature hates Wisconsin

Whenever snow comes I am just never ready for it, ever.  Now I cannot complain to much because it is all melted now but still it is to cold.  It is staying in the low 40 -30s and it is snowing all the time and melting.  Quit teasing me.  It is suppose to be a horrid winter this year and I am dreading it.  

Negative:  Shoveling out the drive way, driving in it, all the slush that makes your pants dirty.

Positive: Snow tubing and sledding.  No matter how old you are when you go snow tubing it feels like you are a kid again.  We cannot wait to do it.

Otherwise we have an appt with the allergist for my daughter Anna.  She has suffered from outer hives for a while and this round got really bad where her neck,hands,and feet were twice the size so we took her to the er and they gave her 3 orals and one shot and she was on steroids for 1 week.  She is cleared up now but I cannot wait to see what makes he flair up

That is all that is really now.  Have a great rest of the week

Bossy little girls

       This is my daughter Anna to a T.  Now when I became a new mom at 19 my first daughter Mallory was the perfect baby.  Sleeping through the night at 2 months, listened very well, ate every thing in front of her, was amazing in the store, and never had horrible fits. So when I had Anna and she started growing up and realizing she is very very strong willed and nothing like her sister, I had trouble raising my daughter.

       Before the age of 1 Anna was slamming her head into the floor, walls, chairs, fridges any thing she could hit when she was having one of her fits.  She didn't sleep through the night until she was 1 year and a half, she would scream and kick when ever we went some where to this day I am surprised cops didn't show up at my door asking if she was even my daughter!  She brought us to the ER many times from being super curious, I woke up at 4 am to find her eating blocks of cheese, powder chocolate milk, spilling apple juice in my bed at 2 am because she wanted a drink.  Then she started talking well mostly screaming, stomping, slamming doors, my very first " I DON"T LIKE YOU" as a mom, talking back, word vomit of the mouth and hitting.

       She had and still has a temper.  Have I learned to deal with it?  Not completely but we are getting there.  She has to have her space when she is mad, I have to be stern but cannot yell or it will make the situation worse.  I have to bend down and speak to her in a certain tone and we have lots and lots of talks and taking away things when she hits her sisters.  She is very very bossy but very organized and that is what will make her great one day. 

       I could say hey I don't wanna deal with this or I am sick of this but I couldn't see my life with out it.  She has taught me so much in the last 5 years.  I am shy and a hide my feelings type of girl but if you don't even ask Anna she is gonna tell you what she thinks and what is on her mind and I love her for that and that is something I wish I had.  All these skills of a strong willed child that we dread but in the end they are changing us for the better in parenting skills and in ourselves and we have to remember that these skills are going to making them amazing adults.

       These will all make funny stories one day and I cannot wait to watch her grow into something amazing later in life but for now we will take things as they come and hope for the best.

I love you Anna

Love Mom

       

My dream has become my shadow

   

       Have you ever wanted to put your life on hold, ignore every one in it and just do something for yourself?
That is the point I am at.  If you don't know me I had my first daughter 2 months after graduating high school. I had to grow up fast.  I wasn't the party girl who shoved my daughter on my mom every weekend.  I started renting a house the day after high school.  I had been buying things here and there from freshman year so by the time I had my own rental home I had silverware, plates, pots and pans, kitchen table set and more. Thank god for my moms basement!

       I had the most horrid couch it was black and pink floral and it was on wheels and the landlord is a whole different story.  Anyway, I worked, my boyfriend worked and my mom and soon to be mother in law took care of my daughter for us.  I was a horrible cook that loved trying new recipes.  I was a horrible cleaner as well but I was a wonderful mother who stayed home all the time with my daughter and gave her 100% me

       I can tell you right now after having 3 girls I don't know when the last time was when I got myself a new outfit.  I haven't bought a new pair of shoes in 8 years.  3 girls make you broke but even when I do have the money to do something nice for myself I think of my girls and what they need and more.  So 99.9% of the time I think of my girls except on my birthday I go get my hair done and do something nice for myself.

       Back when I was in high school I never really though about college, my parents never pushed it nor asked about it but I always always thought about a pastry school.  It is still a dream that is far in the back of my mind but of course the only one is over 2 hours away and that is very hard to do when you have 3 little ones at home.

       I would love one day to own my own pastry shop and make eclairs, lobster tails, pies, tarts, puff pastries, and more but not cakes.  Don't get me wrong I love making cakes but I am not an artist and I am not a decorator so I will stick to my love of cookies, brownies, donuts and all the rest i said above.

 <-----my dream name

*sigh*

What is your dream?  Are you living it, are you putting it off, or are you wanting to still go for it?